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Life is pretty awesome now. Who knew it'd take all this time for it to turn out right?
It's been a little while since a kissed a girl. Like, really, truly, kissed a girl.

Lucky for her, I'm as good as I ever was.
Eh, they can't all be winners.

Making nothing out of nothing at all.

I talked with most amazing girl I've ever known again earlier tonight.

I've known her for seven years, and every single time I talk to her, I just check out.

I have no misconception of what she's really like, or what I mean to her.

I haven't talked to her in a month, but the second I do, my mind goes high.

What the heck is wrong with me?

I'm not sure if I secretly like that I know it'll never go anywhere, or if I just fall under her spell like everybody else does.

Whatever the reason is, I like it so much that I refuse to let reality get in the way. And for some reason, that's okay by me.
If you left it up to me, every day would be a holiday from real.

Letter #3

It was you that I originally wanted to start these open letters for. I'm not sure why. You probably already knew all of this, but I'm going to write it out anyway.

Even before we went together, before whatever our thing was, back when you were with somebody else, I somehow knew. Or thought I knew. Because I was obviously wrong. I thought you might be the one. When we got closer and things came together I thought I knew you were the one. I never felt that or thought that before. With anyone. Or since, for that matter. When we were together, even when we weren't physically together, you filled up every room I was in. You lit every path I walked, and you made my life an amazing, exhilarating place to live. My thoughts turned to you constantly. Sometimes they still do. I thought we were Johnny and June, somehow fated to have met. That we were together because that was how it was supposed to be. But I was wrong. But just because I was wrong doesn't mean I wasn't right too, in some ways. You were exactly what I wanted. You're the litmus test for girls now. I will always compare them to you. And that's because you perfectly embodied all the things I wanted, and things I needed and didn't realize.

A lot of people I know thought I should be mad, or still should be. But I was never mad, just disappointed in a way. But I also wanted to thank you. You took the mirror and showed it back on me. I learned a lot about myself in the aftermath and came out of it a better, stronger, smarter person. A person that knows what he's doing even if he doesn't know where he's going. And that's the reason you'll always have a place in my heart, not the other stuff.

It makes me happy to know you're happy. And I hope someday our paths will cross again.

Jul. 5th, 2011

Let me be your one light
And if you'd like a true heart
Take the time to show you're mine
And I'll be a blue moon in the dark

While you sleep, you'll see me there
Clouds race across the sky
Close your eyes and don't ask why
And I'll be a blue moon in your eyes

Morning comes and sleeping's done
Birds sing outside
If demons come while you're under
I'll be a blue moon in the sky
Come to me my love
One more night
Come on
Cause I don't wanna be without
Without you

In the air tonight
So cold and strange
Winter of loss
When I have changed
She is floating out too soon
So soon

In our room
Inside
With these ones
I want to hide
She is floating out too fast
Too fast

Come to me
My love
One more night
Come on
Cause I just wanna talk with you
Again
I will make 30 days this go. And hopefully there will be satellite internet going when I get home this evening.

Here's the lyrics:

Take the time to make some sense
Of what you want to say
And cast your words away upon the waves
Sail them home with Acquiesce
On a ship of hope today
And as they land upon the shore
Tell them not to fear no more
Say it loud and sing it proud today
And then dance if you want to dance
Please brother take a chance
You know they're gonna go
Which way they wanna go
We know is that we don't know
How it's gonna be
Please brother let it be
Life on the other hand won't let us understand
We're all part of the masterplan
Say it loud and sing it proud today
I'm not saying right is wrong
It's up to us to make
The best of all the things that come our way
Cos everything that's been has past
The answer's in the looking glass
There's four and twenty million doors
On life's endless corridor
Say it loud and sing it proud today
Will dance if they want to dance
Please brother take a chance
You know they're gonna go
Which way they wanna go
We know is that we don't know
How it's gonna be
Please brother let it be
Life on the other hand won't let you understand
We're all part of the masterplan
Hey hey, my my
Rock and roll can never die
There's more to the picture
Than meets the eye.

Out of the blue and into the black
You pay for this, but they give you that
Once you're gone, you can't come back
When you're out of the blue
And into the black


The king is gone but he's not forgotten
Is this the story of Johnny Rotten?
It's better to burn out than fade away...
The king is gone but he's not forgotten


Hey hey, my my
Rock and roll can never die
There's more to the picture than meets the eye
Hey hey, my my